Wenn meine Welt aus Glas wäre, würde ich mit Steinen werfen. Ich kann nicht mehr, es macht mich kaputt. Und ich mache mich weiter kaputt. Es blutet, ich heule, Tränen schmecken nicht. Ich habe genau das Gegenteil gemacht, so wie immer. Ich habe kein Bock mehr.
You know sometimes I just lay there on my bed and all these past memories rush into my head. There is nothing I can do about it, so I just lay there with tears on my eyes, silently crying. I don't want people to see me like this. I don't want people to see how vulnerable I am. People tend to take advantage of your insecurities and weaknesses you know. These past memories won't ever disappear and I have accepted that. I have accepted my past, but does that mean that it'll hurt less? No. It still hurts and it'll always hurt.